I never really did a follow-up post on all our church-hunting, so I’ll try to make up for it now.
When my sister came to live with us, we were still church hunting. I invited her to give us her input on what kind of church we should look for, and she wanted us to find a Baptist church. So I started keeping an eye open. Around that same time, I got invited to a birthday party for a little boy – at a Baptist church. I figured, hey, why not?
So we went. And we were overwhelmed. Everyone was kind and genuine and it kind of felt like we had come home.
Interestingly enough, Benjamin did not appear traumatized or exhausted from crying and seemed to have enjoyed himself in the Nursery (if you need to know why that’s awesome, please read my blogs on church hunting).
Afterwards we all agreed: best church yet.
So we kept going and the sermons kept being awesome and we kept enjoying it and being overwhelmed at how awesome everyone seemed to be. After a few months, it appears we have found a church home. And everyone said: yipee!
In the interest of full disclosure, I’m not going to lie: I still don’t know ANYONES name. I try so hard, but by the time two weeks go by I’ve forgotten them all. Working every other week significantly cuts down on the time I spend in church on Sunday morning. I get frustrated that I don’t know people that well yet, but then I remind myself how long it took me to really get to know people at Legacy (1+ year) and I give myself a break. Being new to a church is hard.
Anyways, all that to say that almost every time we attend the services it’s awesome and relevant I feel like God is speaking to me.
The sermon this last Sunday was on servitude. I got the feeling the message was primarily aimed at encouraging people to serve within the church, but in my own life it served as an excellent reminder that I am called to serve.
Not only am I called to serve, I’m called to serve with a good attitude. In fact, if I serve with a bad attitude, there’s really no point in me serving.
There’s a part of my life that I am actively serving in right now, and sometimes it is very hard to do with a good attitude. Sometimes I am bitter about it. Sometimes I tell myself that I deserve better. Sometimes I feel that I shouldn’t have to serve in such a way that cramps my life and costs me so much.
But the bottom line is that I am called to love like Jesus loved and serve in a way that glorifies him. I prayed, long ago, that God would put people in my life that I could help. I think God finally called me on that prayer. If I serve begrudgingly and with a bad attitude, who is that helping? What good is that doing anyone?
If I don’t use this opportunity to reach out and try to practice what I know I should be doing, then I’m putting myself through this misery to no one’s benefit. I’m not getting blessed, I’m not being effective at helping people, and I’m not growing. One would even argue that if I could serve with a little more grace, God might help this not be such an uncomfortable process.
So I’m going to try a little more, now that I have had that reminder pushed into my face. I’m going to try to have grace in the midst of serving, even though sometimes – honestly – it stinks.